a development blog by someone who is not okay.
tracking my slow descent into javascript psychosis since 2024.
this is fine. everything is fine. the build is failing again.
A deeply personal account of hubris, cargo pants, and a broken deployment pipeline that took down the entire checkout flow for 47 minutes. I knew the risks. I ignored them. This post is my penance.
✧ debugging / griefA forensic analysis of what a human being will try before checking the obvious thing. Spoiler: I googled in 11 browser tabs first.
★ react / existentialI wrote 300 lines of a component before realizing I had the wrong data structure from the start. A meditation on sunk cost and optional chaining.
✦ stack overflow / beefA retrospective on asking a question that had already been answered in 2011, being told so, and then discovering the answer didn't actually work either.
✧ rust / copiumThe original premise was that the language was holding me back. A full rewrite later, I can confirm: nope. It was just me. It was always me.
★ legacy code / unsolved crimesThey are gone now. The comment remains. I inherit their sins and their complete lack of documentation. I hope they are well. I do not forgive them.